It ended tonight....

'I tried soo hard and she tore my feelings like i had none'.. Well its a line from Puddle of Mud's She 'FKING' hates me song...=) used to like it though... No one hated me back then.. heh.. Anyway... at 10.06 pm just now.. i got dumped by the girl i love most in my entire life (yes my entire life)... Eventhough its just 9 days... they were nine beautiful memorable days.. The web cam we did together along wit jy.. The middle fingers we showed to each other,the sea creatures we called each other,the good nights we always said to each other,the good mornings,The SYG's... All these are now unfortunately for me known as memories... My dream was terminated by her.. I have to apologise for blocking her all of a sudden.... Its just that i could'nt take the heartache anymore... Twice... Oh well, in the end romeo and juliet had to die too right? So... Sigh... Im still very in love with you...... Bitch....... This relationship is ended by n.. syg...dolphine... In loving memory... Nina...

a BIG thank you..=)

Just read Yee Lei's blog... And i gotta say a BIG BIG THANK YOU to her bloggie.. Things tat happened to her in the past few months really made me laugh..=) This is the first time i laugh whole heartedly this week.... After having ended up shit faced,and listening to Sad.fm,easy listenings for the 'just broke ups'.. i find myself lucky.. to have that friend... That funny,ass slapping,'i'll bite your fists if you annoy me',piano hating Damn Good Friend...=D Yee Lei....=D I cant stop laughin after i read the if i were a boy parodified( don't know if there's such words) lyrics... It was just so so so so so funny.. hah! xD oh my... Damn Jay Han.. you're really good... xD hah.. Im so looking forward to meet these 'special humans' in school.. Im desperate to go back to school... Hopefully God gives me a chance to enter form 6....=) Till then.. Cheerio! And Thanks again FROGGY(Yee Lei's nickname) xD..

ps: Am still missing her dearly...

Heartbreak... Depression...

Right,so.. -scoffs- .... Im really speechless i tell you... I cant get her out from my head.. And,wel she WAS moody.. and then.... i entered the heartbreak hotel... i was so eager to get home from dinner just to online and WISHING i could get a chance to at least talk to her... and after i onlined.. i saw her name.. nnb for short... and then something sort of replaced me... wel not exactly me... But that 'ekjjsyg's' word i like so dearly.. replaced by... wel i dun wanna mention though... Its close to 2245 now and.. im afraid i wont be able to sleep at night tonight.. Had enough.. Is it due to my sensitivity? Or is it bound to happen? Who the devil is he... What did satan sent this demon to do... What does he want... God i don't wanna lose my girlfriend... I LOVE HER DEARLY...i love her so very much...=( Why is this happening? Should i blame HOTLINK for being such assholes to charge rates to other lines that expensive? Or do i blame me? The usual emo jin ji....=( After seeing that picture of him and her.. I honestly tell you i banged my head against the table... Its an immature action.. But.. its just me.. Me over her... Today i had a rough evening wit the basketball players... i lost all matches and my nose bleed due to furiousity... And every after game today i sat on the bench she was the first thing i worried about.. how is she in school? will she message me later? Will my stupid line connect me to the internet later so tat i can talk to her... All these...lead me to disappointment... I cant afford to lose her.. She's the first thing i think of when i open my eyes from my sleep,and the last thing i think of before i close my eyes... God help me with this situation... Please help me... Im.. Im.... Im... Sigh....

The Beginning...

Is this how you blog? Im sorry this is my first time blogging so.. yea.. heh...=) Okay... i was told that blogging is like a personal diary thingy so er.. See if i could do what bloggers do.. heh..=) Its 1045am now.. Im sitting in front of my laptop.. before this i ate,i water the plants and i,text my girl.. Kinda sad though.. she's kinda moody now... sigh... How can i mend her little heart? =/ What made her moody was the main question in my head.. was it something i said? =/

ps: Nina.. i love you..=)