Heartbreak... Depression...

Right,so.. -scoffs- .... Im really speechless i tell you... I cant get her out from my head.. And,wel she WAS moody.. and then.... i entered the heartbreak hotel... i was so eager to get home from dinner just to online and WISHING i could get a chance to at least talk to her... and after i onlined.. i saw her name.. nnb for short... and then something sort of replaced me... wel not exactly me... But that 'ekjjsyg's' word i like so dearly.. replaced by... wel i dun wanna mention though... Its close to 2245 now and.. im afraid i wont be able to sleep at night tonight.. Had enough.. Is it due to my sensitivity? Or is it bound to happen? Who the devil is he... What did satan sent this demon to do... What does he want... God i don't wanna lose my girlfriend... I LOVE HER DEARLY...i love her so very much...=( Why is this happening? Should i blame HOTLINK for being such assholes to charge rates to other lines that expensive? Or do i blame me? The usual emo jin ji....=( After seeing that picture of him and her.. I honestly tell you i banged my head against the table... Its an immature action.. But.. its just me.. Me over her... Today i had a rough evening wit the basketball players... i lost all matches and my nose bleed due to furiousity... And every after game today i sat on the bench she was the first thing i worried about.. how is she in school? will she message me later? Will my stupid line connect me to the internet later so tat i can talk to her... All these...lead me to disappointment... I cant afford to lose her.. She's the first thing i think of when i open my eyes from my sleep,and the last thing i think of before i close my eyes... God help me with this situation... Please help me... Im.. Im.... Im... Sigh....